Secret Rendezvous 秘密邂逅
Website
2021
🪦 http://www.meetjonathanhere.com/ 🪦
The year 2020 has thrust us into a state of "in-betweenness." During this period of uncertainty and transition, I found myself deep in contemplation about identity. Growing up in multicultural communities, this liminality was not unfamiliar to me.
During the COVID lockdown, my mental state nearly collapsed. When I realized my fear of intimacy stemmed from the anxiety of losing my independent identity, I understood that my true enemy was my unconscious self. This led me to create "Jonathan," an online presence - a fractured, symbolic, and political entity through which I could re-examine my life.
I built a website under Jonathan's name, my tower of chaos and divergence. It houses a letter, case studies, and visual works inspired by novelist Kobo Abe. Though confined by the pandemic, I found that artistic creation, like photography, is essentially about conquering fear.
"Jonathan" exists as a collective construct, like a blade of grass swaying in an energy field, establishing its own form. He represents not just me, but also my estranged Taiwanese boyfriend, the Berlin activists posting paper notes, those sharing black icons on Instagram, and everyone browsing this site from home.
In a context where future choices seem severely limited, we can still seek new pathways from this in-between space. We can construct our unique subjectivity within a non-unitary unity, finding expression and possibility in the liminal spaces of both physical and cyber worlds.
2020年将我们推入了一种"中间状态"。在这段充满不确定与过渡的时期，我深深陷入对身份认同的思考。从小在多元文化社群中长大的我，对这种临界状态并不陌生。在新冠疫情封锁期间，我的精神状态几近崩溃。当我意识到我对亲密关系的恐惧源于失去独立身份的焦虑时，我明白了真正的敌人是我的无意识自我。
这促使我创造了"乔纳森"这个在线存在——一个破碎的、象征性的、政治性的实体，通过它我得以重新审视自己的生命。我以乔纳森的名义建立了一个网站，这是我的混沌与分歧之塔。网站收录了一封信件、案例研究，以及受小说家安部公房启发的视觉作品。尽管被疫情所困，我发现艺术创作，就像摄影一样，本质上是关于战胜恐惧的。
"乔纳森"作为一个集体构建物而存在，像能量场中摇曳的一片草叶，建立着自己的形态。他不仅代表着我，也代表着我疏离的台湾男友，在柏林张贴纸条的行动者们，在Instagram上分享黑色图标的人们，以及所有在家浏览这个网站的人。在未来选择似乎严重受限的语境下，我们依然能从这个中间地带寻找新的路径。我们能在非统一的统一性中构建独特的主体性，在物理世界与网络空间的临界处找到表达与可能。
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